si bisu

rindu is like the atmosphere , we cant see , but we can feel it :D

2010-12-06T18:55:00.001-08:00

dear,
i miss u so much ! and all these days i be just like a zombie , a body without soul . BABE , its killing me ! people always ask . where are u now ? what did i reply ? u always be inside my heart , very close . i dreamt about u . i wish u were hear .

but dear ,
if u read this ,
why u left me hear alone ? i really need u now ! WHY ?? i feel lost , lost without oxygen in the milkyway , lost without compass in the deep forest , lost witout any light in thw deep ocean .

ape kurang yea ak ? pergi lah kw dgn dia . thanks kerana pernah mmbahagiakan .

babe , i know u angry with me, coz i'm always left u behind . but , iu have the right to know that , i'm always miss u . every day ! am i ugly ?

dah sebulan kaw tinggalkan ak . kaw pergi dengan dia . yea , ak kurang matang . yea , ak juga yg salah sebab terlalu show off ble kaw jd milik ak . thats is illegal .

utk org yg sedang mmbace :

this is my LOVE :

hey , ipod . ak rindu kaw sejak kw kene rampas oleh insan ke 3 (warden ) . ak x bleh hidop tanpa kaw !! PULANGKANN .

warden : bak sini mp3 (dia x tau nie ipod) tu ! kamu tuntut lepas SPM .

the nerd : *terkesima :(

p/s : lame ak x post

cinta 10 hari

2010-11-18T21:10:00.001-08:00

heyy .. ak s.e.r.i.u.s ! ok , cerita dia cam nie:

SPM (x habis2, menyampah lakk) kian menjelang , kami diarahkan menimba ilmu selagi termampu.

tusyen menjadi tempat bertemunya jodoh ak n vampire (ouh, he is so cool) apahal lahh dia muncul tetibe :

VAMPIRE diaries : (sbagai secret admire , ak berperanan mencatat ini )

first day : F, 7 ,fish , knape awk x gelak ble ad lawak?

2nd day : red eye (sakit),cool , black torso, killer smile

(sy tahu knape awk x gelak, sbb klau awk gelak, sy pengsan time tuu jugak ) , chemistry?

3rd day : my friend suprise me , she said you are taken . rumours? haha *boo , x nak caye !

4th day : F , shorts , black shirt , kene marah :)

5 th day : late ?? purple long slevess , white jeans , F , da*n cool !

(pelik , nape awk x duduk sblah perempuan2 )

6th day : -absence-

7th day : totally late ! purple long skeeve , F , -ouh, prasan x sy jln sblah awk?-

8th day : F, black torso, black jeans , (awk ske perempuan tu? xpe2 name that girl sme dgn sy ), sing a song .

9th day : ouhh, sbaris dgn sy !! juling mata usha awk . hahaha . (awk mmg ske that girl eh? )

10th day : i HATE you! knape x blaja time tusyen huh? dah laa mhal seminar tu , gelak2 ngan that girl pulak ! eishhhhh . (jeles)

satu jea, awk x bleh lwn my only vampire .

p/s (kwn sy kte sy lg cntek dr that girl (prasan ) . haha . x lah , diorg kate , awk x sesuai utk sy . sbb ape? entah larhh ... pnat laaa jth cinta )

ehem3 , td sy duduk sebelah awk . awk x perasan es? xpe2, tuu pun dah cukup :D

short messages

2010-10-30T09:27:00.000-07:00

hey ,
as u all tahu . SPM dah nak dekat . nie maybe the last post :)
so,
ak memamg lame x post , tp, my addmath book is my NEW blog , when i'm at hostel .
hey, i wanna to share with u !

pertama

kawannn..
ak sensitif
dunia bulat, awan ropol2 , langit luas , laut dalam
begitu juga kawan
macam2 otak ,
tapi, kita?
perlu ke kita lihat kwn2 ketawa
walhal hati kita x seimbang PHnya

buntu
lebih baek ak kwn dgn buku

kedua

pensil , pemadam , kertas , dakwat ,garisan dan noktah
semuanya berlumba mengejar tuannya
namun tuannya hanya berfoya

ketiga

masa!! kaw mazmumah !
cemburukan ak

keempat

hidup,
kosong dengan perasaan
impian,
buang semua perasaan
palsu,
cuba jd bisu

kelima

THE UGLY SMILE
imagine an ugly smile , :) :} :]

i CANT!

keenam

rolling tape.
(take one)
ACTION

HOPE : a am very GOOD
GOOD : i HOPE so
HOPE : yes , i am good , GOOD , why dont u trust me?
GOOD : you gave me too much hope , and HOPE without striving , just like good without deeds
STRIVE : * smilling *

good bye :(

2010-09-16T22:23:00.000-07:00

i look back . what a horrible life . i have to make something . yes!! wake up stupid lazy dummy .

no more happy , laugh .
lps nie ak xkn post !!

smpi spm

riot di tesco !

2010-09-15T06:22:00.000-07:00

ni atib . dia bdk plg gedik kt dlm family . ayat dia "asyik atib jea "
semalam pipi aku lenguh sbb asyik gelak .

dah habis main ni . dia nk keluar dr troli . tp, x boleh . dia terjatuh. org lain x bole tlg sebab tergelak2 . dia pula mnjerit2 mintak tolong

syawal

2010-09-13T23:40:00.000-07:00

RAYA ??

kau suka ?

ak menangis . bengang . ramadhan pergi .

mereka gembira . raya datang lagi :)
wahh , bunga api di malam raya ,
ketupat di dapur ,
baju raya di gosok ,

ketawa n gembira . saudara- mara pulang ,
atuk nenek suka .

menganyam bukan tugas ku (x reti )
isi beras jd keutamaan .

mereka menangis bermaaf- maafaan . sedih
aku? photografer :P (gamba ak upload nanti )

hari makin tinggi
nafsu utk mengUPDATE makin kurang
trial just like A NIGHTMARE

org mest pelik , nape THE NERD

well ,

lets flashback ..

diciptakan seorg insan (lagu siti )

sebenar ak bdk yg belagak n bajet kat mane2 sekalipun . ak rase sume org patut berada di bwh arhn ak . ak petah bercakap (sume jenis bahas, forum ak sapu) , hebat sukan ,brjwtn tinggi , blaja pon boleh laa . oleh yg demikian , ak jd bongkak n lupa diri . org kate ak kaki ampu n mcm2 lagi . semua org benci ak . then ap jd ? my mum hadiahkn i a holy quran with tafsir . i began to read the translation . selama nie , bace arab jea . bukan faham pon . i realise that LIFE is about me ibadah . I try to change from a monster to a better person . i'm done talking and try to be an untalkative person . believe me .. i'm trying to change . thats why im THE NERD .

SPM dah memanggil , so ak kene gak berkepit dgn buku . fone ak patah dua . hebat kn ? raya punya pasal .

lompat bangunan (bunuh diri)

2010-09-03T08:11:00.000-07:00

sengal . ramadhan belum habis . lagu raya dah mcm zikir kt bibir masyarakat . mungkin sebab tuu kut lailatulqadar berada pada 10 mlm terakhir . pernah jumpa lailatulqadar ? jom kita buru !

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bodoh . sy delete blog lame . sebab , blog tu palsu !! mcm hidup dlm buih , mahu keluar utk hirup oxygen tp, takot kotor . itu sy . NOW , i'm the nerd .

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lagi dua bulan , spm memburu , masa mencemburu , sy rase berbulu , sebab x habis baca buku . pernah x rase mcm perlu bunuh diri sebab rase dunia akn hancur bila kita gagal buat sesuatuu . .biasalah bila dah bunuh diri selesai . pernah x? ak pernah . serious . time tuu , rase nk bunuh diri jew !! dah la nak cepat , buat hal , gagal pulak !! aduh ! suicide lagi bagus . dlm saat tu , x sape boleh halang , kemarahan melampau membuatkn manusia bertindak di luar jangkaan . lalu sy terus melakukan ini :

ARGGGHHHHH . puas hati kaw !! td bila ak nak masukkan dakwat pensil , patah , ak masukkn lagi , x boleh masuk . tinggal 1 jea lead pensil . dengan kesabaran dn penuh konstrentasi , ak cuba masukkan . ok , dh masuk suku , separuh .... arrghh , PATAH !!!
bunuh diri laa . akhirnya tamat la riwayat pensil tekan tu . ak campak masuk rumah jiran , harap kucing dia yg gila tu x mkn pensil tu. *pensil tu yg suicide .

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berbuka di concord shah alam . kembung perut mcm ikan kembung mama goreng semalam .

kawan = oxygen

2010-09-03T07:20:00.000-07:00

ak tahu , ramai x suke kaw .
tp, ak suka kaw . sbb kw pernah ckp kt ak yg ak special friend kaw
*senyum*

tp,
kw pergi jauh
jauh sangat . tinggalkn ak .
org yg x suka kaw pun mula kutuk kaw .
pd mula nya ,
ak sedih
tp, lame2 ak jd x suka kaw
sebab kaw x contact ak

jahat x ak?

baru2 ni ak selongkar bilik .
ak jumpa kad yg kaw bagi ak :

title : you're a special friend

to : my name

dear my beloved my name

friend are just not friend . we need them to make us smile . here are some last speech i took from a magazine :

title : fake or real friend

f : never ask for food

r : the reason that we dont have food

f : call ur parents mr, mrs

r : call ur parebts mom n dad

f : never seen u cry

r : cry with u

f : know a few things about u

r : could write a book about you with direct quotes from u

f : will leave you behind , if that is the crowd is doing

r : will kick the whole crowd that leave you

i just wanna wish you a happy birthday and a long live .

dont ever forget who i am bcoz i've been your friend once that always written in your life history .

-hope to see you again-

*sedih*

my mum slalu pesan sejak ak 6 tahun lg , (time tu ak nk naik van g tadika) she said to me :

a friend in need is a friend indeed

eventhough, i have many friends . tp, ak x rase semua kwn2 ak tu ikhlas to make a friendship.

i hate them !! mmg dunia ni mcm2 . kdag2 kita x sedar yg kwn yg plg kita percaya adalah the worst nemessis .